Tuesday marked one year since the Boston Marathon bombings that left three dead and many injured.
The marathon itself will be run next Monday. Many veterans of the event have struggled with the decision of whether or not to go this year.
One of them is a North Texan who was racing at the big event as the bombs went off last year.
"Going across that finish line, no matter how many times, it's just an amazing feeling," said runner Sherry Pipkin, who has competed in 45 marathons.
But this year at the Boston Marathon, she'll be thinking about much more.
Pipkin was approaching the Boston Marathon finish line in 2013 as the first explosion went off.
"You could see the smoke and debris," she said. "There were probably about six runners kind of in this group of people, but we all kind of stopped to a slow trot and were looking around, going, ‘What was that?' And it was about 11 seconds later that the one went off behind me."
Pipkin jumped over a fence to get away from the chaos.
"I'm sure I was in a state of shock more than anything," she said. "My ears were ringing. "
In the year that followed, there were sleepless nights as Pipkin processed what happened. Among other things, she took advantage of webinar group therapy from the Boston Athletic Association.
"I went to a therapist a few times and that helped a lot to talk about it, because I couldn't talk to other people about it so much," she said.
Pipkin hopes that that, plus the trusted marathon training that got her through seven Boston Marathons before, prepared her for this year, when she'll approach that same finish line and this time be allowed to cross it.
"I try to think about it and think about and prepare myself for how it might feel going down that," she said. "I think it'll be kind of emotional. That's probably the best way to say it."
Pipkin is looking forward to the positive vibe sure to be present in Boston on Monday.
"I was very amazed at the people of Boston last year and how they reacted," she said. "I think there's going to be so many spectators and just so many…I think it's a celebration. I think that's the mood."
Pipkin leaves for Boston on Thursday.
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